May 20, 2005
It's only just begun... by Celeste
For the last two months I have been dreading turning 21. Not because I'm old but because I feel I haven't achieved anything. Most people my age are just finishing Uni thus have so many prospects in front of them.
But last night I had a chat with one of my housemates. We never usually talk about anything remotely serious as we're both jokers and have filthy minds so banter tends to be very light hearted.
I told him how I was feeling about things and he said something that has really turned around the way I'm feeling. He said "Don't think about the fact that you feel you haven't achieved anything. Think of it as 21 is where it all starts. Things are just about to begin."
He is so right. Things are just about to begin. I've changed so much in myself this last year and I have tonnes of prospects. It's so easy to put yourself down and feel negative and you just fall into that trap, but now I can't wait until my birthday.
So I don't have a wonderful career but hey that's not all it's cracked up to be. Sure I'm not earning sack loads of money but I don't have to work every hour of the day. I work Monday to Friday 9-5, I don't dread going into work, as soon as I'm out of the office I forget about work and I have a brilliant set of colleagues.
I'm not a size 8 with legs up to my eyeballs but I have a great rack and relish being in my early 20's as they are fabulously pert, I have great hair, my skin is pretty good and I really like my nose.
I don't own my own place but that means I can be flexible and spontaneous. I'm not tied down.
I don't have shed loads of pals but I have a group of friends who I always have a good time with and a couple who I can trust my inner most feelings and darkest secrets with and that's rare. Plus I'm loved.
So as much as I envy other people for being prettier, slimmer, more successful etc than me, I have to remember that I have time on my side.
Bring it on 1st of June, I can't wait for life to begin.
Posted by Celeste at May 20, 2005 10:32 AM
Comments
You ARE loved, and just think all those skinny gals can't do scone sex liek you can ;)
Bring on the 1st June cause I'm coming to visit youuuuuuuuu!
Posted by: silk at May 20, 2005 01:36 PMHee hee i know!!! Yay!
I also think of all the killer cleavage tops I can wear! Although Miss Silk you are blessed faaaaaaaaar more in that department! hee hee.
Posted by: Celeste at May 20, 2005 02:02 PMDon't worry chaps, I WILL be taking the digital camera along on the first.
Ahem
Posted by: Tilesey at May 20, 2005 02:10 PMHaven't you got enough pics of my chest? Take some of Silk's! Hee hee. She's a camera whore....... ;-D
Posted by: Celeste at May 20, 2005 02:16 PMOi! My boobies are non-photogenic :p
Have this pic instead...
http://www.fortes.co.uk/Scones.jpg
Posted by: silk at May 20, 2005 03:14 PMha ha ha ha! Brill!
Posted by: Celeste at May 20, 2005 03:29 PMOooh! Happy birthday for the first incase I forget C!
And, great to see you put such a positive spin on things! Not nearly enough people do that nowadays...
The other week, i broke 3 of my front teeth. A total bummer, but, not being able to bite that well has meant that my nails have grown into gorgeous talons for the first time ever! BONUS!
21 was an ace time of self discovery for me, I hope it is for you too ;)
(and Mr T - I hope you're planning a suitably lovely pressie ;))
Posted by: Hannabella at May 20, 2005 04:29 PMOk, who's been talking about 'Racks'?
Posted by: bedshaped at May 21, 2005 07:20 PM*hangs head in shame* I know I shamelessly stole that phrase after reading your blog! But mine are real! ;-D
Posted by: Celeste at May 22, 2005 10:43 AMI agree...think of 21 as your start! There's so much in front of you! I remember feeling that way before turning 21. It does get better!
Posted by: Sissy at May 23, 2005 12:19 AMThanks Sissy. I've now started to get excited about presents....hee hee
Posted by: Celeste at May 23, 2005 09:12 AMThanks Hannah.
I'm possibly arranging a night out or something the weekend after my B'day so if you fancy a night out in the wonder that is Reading then you are more than welcome to pop up and stay at mine (hope a couch is ok I'm not sure we could fit 3 people in my bed although that would be fun....;-D. As soon as my motivation kicks in I'll get Tris to let you know! X
Posted by: Celeste at May 23, 2005 09:40 AM... I am 10 years older than you. 10. TEN! That..makes me sad lol. Oh..I need a drink lol.
Posted by: ocB at May 23, 2005 09:57 AMThat doesn't make you sad!
Posted by: Celeste at May 23, 2005 10:34 AM
